Ands Auef I was having trouble sleeping. It was not because of bitter Ill intentions toward the lady queued in front of me. She shook, Raging as she bellowed on and on about her gilded glitter To the hapless boy who much bewildered manned the service nook. All she seemed inclined to do was hately argue and finagle — And the coffee shop, where often I a breaded breakfast took, They today had gotten garlic on the bottom of my bagel. — So I alternated spare and fitful dozes with a book. I was having trouble sleeping. It was not because of bitter Ill intentions toward the lady queued in front of me. She shook, Raging as she bellowed on and on about her gilded glitter To the hapless boy who much bewildered manned the service nook. All she seemed inclined to do was hately argue and finagle — And the coffee shop, where often I a breaded breakfast took, They today had gotten garlic on the bottom of my bagel. — So I alternated spare and fitful dozes with a book. Restless, I meandered down the hall, in ricochet and stumble. Then, I gadded down the stairs, with half an aimless thought to match Lonesome socks. But subsequent to that, and mindless of my humble Nightclothes, I went shabby out and onto, armed with some dispatch, My front porch; the spring night air was to my vigiled face commended. It was calm, warm, humid, with the light of many stars to catch, As I idled, peering on my ready friend, the long untended Meadow on the gentle hill adjacent to my acred patch. There, I’d join the chicory and sorrel, clover, and their fellow Virid flora, to peruse a text, or nap in vernal blest Cordial sunshine on a tilted sheet of green and blue and yellow. But there was no sunshine. And no naps. And leaving sleepy rest, Even reading in that field, the lighter loads of life deflecting, Would have been a grand infuriating — at the very best — Flurry of the pages. For my stubbled chin was now detecting A remarkably assiduous wind deriving from the west. Leaving little starbreaks, flocks of fleshy clouds galumphy shuffled Overhead, as aerial — invisible and wanting skill — Fingers plucked the shaded blossoms of the dogwood. And this ruffled Midnight bore an aggregate of sound. My ears took in their fill. Thunder rolled. There was a baby somewhere, crying with consistence. In the elms, a dozen crows were nodding out a choral shrill. Curiously, I heard the Billings Bell, awakened in the distance, And — but then I realized the wind had stopped. The air stood still. Sudden ! Stricken ! Most tremendous shaking. Hill and building crumbled. My screen door was splintered on its hinges — gone beyond repair — As my porch was severed from my house. And I was roundly tumbled, Canted back and into my decrepit wooden rocking chair. Minutes passed. The churning motion stilled, curtailing to a token; I, however, was still quaking, set with exponential care. Half of everything, the nature-made, the artifice, looked broken. I was knowing earthenkind affirmed both vincible and rare. Crashing, violent smashing, was ubiquitous, and I was thinking For a while I heard the fire trucks and ambulances ring, But mysteriously, their howling sirens and their beacons blinking Discontinued; there were hot impassioned voices on the wing. I was merely sitting, nursing some inconsequent abrasions, Yet a myriad of restive heinous questions made their sting. From inside I heard my cuckoo cry on four distinct occasions. — And I pondered how an earthquake sways the noble flying thing. Soon, the wind returned; it brought a sulfurous powerful emitting, The effective bitter breath of this, Poseidon’s recent yawn. Flashing lights and too the lights of streets and cozy rooms of sitting In my neighborhood and all the nearby countryside were gone. And the countenance of stars was now entirely forbidden By a veil of vapor: faster had the clouded curtain drawn. From my porch the universe occurred caliginous and hidden. Thunder stood for Chanticleer as morning loomed without a dawn. Undulating tremors, lingering, my trepidations nourished. I looked north of westward — slowly whispering the Apostle’s creed — Where a savage squall of lightning set on the horizon flourished, For the pressing darkness was compelled to somewhat there concede. Monder’s Peak looked unfamiliar to my eyes, and oddly horrid; Certain of the mountains, generally the ones of taller breed, Were from off their crestings throwing growing sprays of something torrid, And these mountains were themselves becoming larger at great speed. I distinguished huge conic domes with summits strongly steaming. Apices now spewed out, from the panging subterranean womb, Ash and lava, leavening out a squalid sky with bloody gleaming; And they also sent out crawling molten fingers groping on the gloom, Firmly blushing in uncanny hues of orange and magenta. The volcanoes next exploded close together, all in bloom, Throwing half themselves up into air as loose ejectamenta, Threaded with a vesseled self-invented lightning in the plume. The conclusion came as those flammivomous enclouded fountains Ceased disgorging calefaction. In regardance of those bright Molten tendrils worming down the ‘mains of bleak beconèd mountains, Rapidly their fervid phantom glow forgot its thermal might, And those crimson emanations in the cloudage near and distant, Also dwindled out. So the environs had reverted quite Back to starless pitch, but this was with the moment inconsistent: By this hour there should have been a decent show of morning light. After lavic terrors passed, the fire came down. The sky delivered Freight that set the world to burning — hell and heaven changing shift. It consumed the mountain forests thereupon — my insides quivered — Then it airborne spread to nearly everywhere — approaching swift. As the smoke and flame drew close, my house rejoined with saucy creaking. I could hear the heat. My respiration had forgone its thrift, And I choked. The scorching dusky atmosphere was acid, reeking, Scalding limb and lung, and every breath became a grievous gift. And I wondered where the robin hides from such a close condition. Chunky embers, by a great rampageous gale dispersed and blown Lawlessly, were eager livid emissaries of perdition. For an instant I was cringing there believing that my own House had caught the torch, the onset of unscapable cremation. In another instant, I was heeding and down to the bone Feeling nothing. Then, I saw that, as a vital consolation, Like myself my house appeared to be as I had always known. Slender streaks now blazed on Babbin Ridge, a waste of scrub and thistle — Which reminded me of Annie, scrounging out behind the store; She was weathered, and she used to ride the railroad cars, and whistle, And she used to say, “Now, what if fire is just a metaphor?” The colossal fires had burned in bright and total conflagration, But they suddenly collapsed; the starving flames went flagging to the core. And so once again the realm was prived of dear illumination. I surmised it would have been the time for bacon smells to pour. Then, from out of smoky skies came varied flakes, by murky vection, Of volcanic ash and cindered wood, obsidian and sear. Some were large, some small, and some around their margins had a section Glowing red, arriving franticly from regions then unclear, Coming not so much by creeping as by whirling round and sweeping On the gust. The shrouded cloudy airs were laying down a drear Broad and heavy coaly blanket, as to set the world asleeping. My apparent station was to sit — and wring my hands in fear. In the wispy dismal dim my unconvening eyes were tested; I could scarcely mark the Atherns’ nearer hedge of thorny sloe. For with sureness by Apophis on this day great Ra was bested, If a day it was at all; the mien of night would not let go. Shaven darkness fell for monotonic hours, augmenting dramas With the sames, and as I in defiance of the warm black snow Swatted ash that had collected on the legs of my pajamas, The impulsive spinning winds resolved to just a steady blow. Roar of flame and blast of hot extravasation had retreated Into time. A quietude had come without the quiet joys. Siren sounds were gone. I heard no vehicles, no voices heated. Gone the simple nuthatch; gone the lilted rhymes of girls and boys; Gone as well the thunders, cross and ever fond of coarse unloading. I sat rocking on my porch, devoid of power, devoid of poise, Sweating and atremble. Ash came down and down. I was with boding Giving thought to this pronounced peculiar deficit of noise. Quiet quietness. The land at last had ceased its clamored seething. But it was unnatural. It went too far, too fine — unmeet. Motion mimed in muted cinema. I could not hear my breathing. Destin had, I feared, perhaps, in an immoderate retreat, Happened irreversibly upon a plane of aural pallid. Nothing sighed or called or wailing cried. Could I forget the sweet Sound of birds? And even the unwavering breeze traversing calid, Stealthy herald, went its way unheard. The silence was complete. And what other oaths could correlate with sonancy forswearing? This meracious dreamy silence was the silence of the slain, Yet inhaling deep it swallowed mingled themes of thick despairing. I had stood ashake beside my chair. The sultry air was vain. It was nearer noon than morningtide, but darkness hung in tarry; Light was less than night when summer’s moon is slivered in the wane. At the end, the hush was broken by the antic sound of very Many chanting frogs, and then it started placidly to rain. Gentle dirty tacit raindrops somehow seemed to clean the aching Surface of the earth and dangle on a clear but humble slope. For a moment all that was was drip and slosh. But quick the waking Came of storm and rains of greater weighting, quenching specul’ed hope. Wind and thunder, torrent, lightning, brimly mounting and unwincing — An affair with which my long-neglected gutters failed to cope, Overflown with turbid swells of grubby wash. The suited rinsing Had become a roaring pouring down of pith and mortal scope. The intensity suggested yet another judication, A diluvian event involving all and sparing none. But on further observation I discerned a moderation In the strobal iron tempest and the grumpy rumble thun. Easing to an even rain, the daypoor day was wringing flashes From the sky. I watched a thousand filthy little rivers run, And the puddles — faces freckled with disordered fleeting splashes — Were expanding, fingered disconnected wets becoming one. Then, a gravid turn: I ascertained a more abundant splatter. Something else was slantly filing under an obstructed sun With a mounting sound of manifold coincidental clatter. The evolving pools grew island piles. The hailing had begun. Shocking ! Mighty ! A percussive blast of savage bare supernal Tearing for what reason into battle well already won. I was brought to realize that this was doom’s unfolding kernel And that I would surely be brought low before the hail was done. So it raided loud and stiff, the stones an inch or so in thickness, At the outset, bearing fury on a crenelating slide, Disamalgamating windows with a frost and fearous quickness; I stood quaking at the breaking of this tapiocal tide. On my porch and scrimply sheltered doldrums I remembered splendid As the hail came on. The layered lumps were being resupplied Heavier and closer than before. For all of three extended Hours the hail did not abate. It steadily intensified. Tripling twice, and strewn with ash, the storm profused its long subtracting Of precipitates directed to a plangent earth collide. Through the rave of galing wind and through the crash of stones impacting Blew the moan of some poor calf with dozens planted in its hide. On the edges of the knifing ices sickling inhumanely I observed the recent leaves of maples violently divide Then commence profane aeolian interment. It was plainly Not a wholesome while for animal or vegetable outside. Ash and ice and leaf and petal gathered into thick conferted Cumulations on the ground. The world I knew lay happed and pied Under lofty watered furrows bringing forth sustained inverted Teeming yields of pearly waving nimbus grain, a whelming wide Overcastled sovereign reigning both magnificent and sorry — Seventh bowl and seventh plague for sage and shadow posed astride; Mjolnir’s stroke had shivered heaven’s dome to fragments keen and starry. All the flowers in my slopy drowsing field abruptly died. It was strange, this hail, unearthly strange with eerie piercing power Lately set upon these arrows of an airy host unskied, Power unsurpassed by quake or flame or seething vulcan tower. Ancient swollen oak and sturdy brickened wall it sharp defied, Penetrating, perforating, as an unabridged destroyer, Like a mowing, almost every standing thing relinquished pride. I desired intensely to retreat within my bounded foyer, But with trembling hands I clutched the railing of my porch — and cried. Then, emerging from the turbid spanse, disturbed and battered, Was a solitary sparrow, on the cindered winds conveyed. Feather-short she came, yet passing hope her wings remained unshattered. Streaky-backed and yellow-billed, she landed soft. She briefly swayed. Then she hopped around in looping routes and pecked in fits and dithers. The relentless thrashing hail composed a strident serenade, And the boarded house across the road collapsed in riddled smithers, And together we were witness to the crystic cannonade. I was counting it a wonder that my dwelling held formation — Now an isolated vessel on a sea of bane unbarred, A disordered vinyled ark of bird and beastly population, Gawking from the gangway. Everywhere I saw it, blasting hard, The spectacular aggression that the heavens down were throwing — Everywhere except a certain region in my neighbor’s yard: There I thought I saw a rising form, cerulean and glowing, Undiminished in the wreak, impassive to the frozen shard. To my sundered eyes it was a blur though something solid seeming, Likely consequentless, not in any vital way profound. Icy missiles pulverized. I stood beside a sparrow deeming. Was it tangled light? Or was it common reasoning unwound? I endeavored hard to focus, manifolding apprehension; Then I recognized it nearly, once my sight was fully sound: Neither convoluted glimmer nor irrational invention But a man or something like one standing almost on the ground. His ensashened robe displayed the golds of sunsets and Septembers; Diadems adorned his head with gem and silver filigree. Feet of bronze sustained; his fractured crystal hands held living embers; And his hair was like the snow at night descending fine and free — Wrapped around him was a spheral mist that rolled with mild precession — From his face a blue light flowed candescent to the last degree. He was scanning slow our shaded space, arrayed in grave expression, Eyes aflame with ivoried fire. And then he turned his gaze to me. Of a sudden, I was struck infirm, for I beheld the mantic Splendor: beauty for the eyes unmeant and virtue bare of veil, Meant but forfeit; death and sleep were flying close. My soul was frantic, Faint and vile, but he was bright serene, undaunted in the hail. As his beams of azure countenance were quiet contradicting All the sooted fervid murk, a bending fever mothered pale Ends. Majestic rushing throbs ran through, good cognizance evicting. Sleep came down in hawk’s claws, sinuous. My fingers lost the rail. Some time later waking reeling I was not by my decision Groveled on my dingy stoop, before the halidom defiled. Then he made towards me. Ash and dread enveloped all my vision. Touching firm my downcast brow he spoke distinctly words unmild, Umbral fundamental wonder both beginning then and ending, Voiced as falling waters highborn deep in heaven’s holy wild, “Vacate fear! And mark the awful arm of God come down attending Strong and swift the staid entreaty of His meek afflicted child!” This entry I originally posted at platiphany.com. |